What do you do when part of you wants food freedom… but another part of you feels scared to let go of the thing that’s been helping you cope?
When recovery feels complicated, it can bring up way more than just questions about food. It can stir up fear, grief, identity, control, and that very real tension of, “Who am I without this?” And friend, if you’ve ever felt embarrassed to admit that part of you doesn’t actually want to recover, you are not broken or hopeless.
In today’s episode, Brittany responds to a listener’s honest question about feeling unsure whether she actually wants recovery. You’ll hear a compassionate, faith-filled conversation about why ambivalence can show up in food freedom and what may be hiding underneath the resistance.
This one is tender, honest, and especially for you if recovery sounds good in theory… but letting go feels a little more complicated in real life.
A few things you can expect to hear in this episode include…
💛 Why “I’m not sure I want to recover” may not mean what you think it means
🫶 The deeper grief that can show up when disordered eating has become part of your identity
😬 Why letting go of food rules, restriction, binge eating, or control can feel strangely scary
📝 A simple but powerful practice to help you name what you’re really leaving behind
🙏 The reminder you may need if food freedom feels possible for everyone else… but not quite for you
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> The Joy-Filled Eater Course closes July 31st at 11:59pm Central. I'm stepping away to work on something new for a few months after that, so this is genuinely it for a while.
It's twelve modules, fully self-paced, the same framework that's walked over 150 women through this exact journey — and every single module comes with an implementation tool, because watching a video and actually changing your life are two very different things. You can do the payment plan at $217 a month for three months, or save $54 and do it all at once for $597. Just head to brittanybraswellrd.com/course.
> EP. 210 with Theresa Davis, The Grief Mentor
> EP. 131: “What to Do When You’re Not Sure You Believe Full Recovery Is Possible or That You Deserve It”
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*Reminder - Podcast content is not meant to be taken as professional nutrition or medical advice, or to replace counseling with a licensed therapist. Please consult with your own treatment team.
