“I will never find it. It’s not here”
When you grow up in high-control charismatic churches, one thing becomes clear: you are now under their control, and it often shows up in the most subtle of ways. Late-night prayers, after-school service, lock-ins, weird emotional youth groups, and touchy, intense worship services.
Suddenly your body is bombarded with so much toxic teaching, and you may not know it, but it shows up in ways that you might not have guessed. In this episode, we sit down with Sarah Paige, a pastor's daughter, exvangelical, and content creator who shares her story about the abuse and misuse of the charismatic church.
Here we discuss everything from body response, to spiritual abuse, to cult tactics, and more. If you’re looking for healing after religious abuse, this episode is for you.
Topics discussed:
- Growing up “nondenominational” fundamentalist
- The pastors kid eldest daughter arc
- The evangelical “fire” and need to save
- Mental health and spiritual warfare
- Letting your mental health live in your body
- The lack of practical care/service from church
- Deconstructing the Bible
- Joining a cult cult
- Finding people who really have your back
- Everything being “done in love”
- Why pastors kids often leave
- Looking for all the “right” routes to healing
- Narcissistic church men
- Churches preying on physcial weakness, and causing it
- The gratitude that comes after leaving
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