In this deeply personal solo episode of The Middle Child Podcast, Royal Boles gets completely transparent about an eight-year relationship cycle, heartbreak, rejection, faith, and what happened when God finally answered a prayer she had been making for years.
Royal shares the story of a man she once believed would be her husband, the years she spent trying to make the relationship work, the heartbreak that followed, and the moment she finally asked God for one more chance at closure.
Then it happened.
She got exactly what she prayed for — and realized the answer was not what she expected.
This episode is about what happens when God gives you the thing you've been begging for, only to show you that it was never where your fulfillment was supposed to come from.
Royal talks openly about chasing someone who wasn't meant for her, low self-esteem, emotional attachment, rejection, closure, deliverance, hearing from God, learning to let go, and the difference between trying to understand God's plan and simply accepting His answer.
She also reads a journal entry she wrote in 2023 — years before the conversation in this episode — and realizes how closely that old prayer connects to what God allowed her to experience now.
In this episode, we talk about:
— What it's like to chase someone for years even when God keeps showing you they're not the person for you
— Why “closure” doesn't always look the way you expect
— What happens when God answers a prayer in a way that hurts
— The difference between emotional attachment and God's direction
— Why you can't always use logic to understand your emotions
— How heartbreak can become a cycle
— The role of friendship and community when you're hurting
— What it means to ask God for deliverance instead of just another chance
— Why God may give you something just to show you that it isn't where your fulfillment comes from
— Learning to see people through God's eyes
— What it really means to release someone
— Moving from frustration to gratitude
— Becoming healed enough to face someone from your past without carrying the same emotions
— Why “he can't heal what you won't reveal” became part of Royal's journey
— Trusting God when His answer doesn't feel good
Royal also opens up about realizing that she had been carrying unresolved heartbreak for much longer than she understood, including pain from her first heartbreak nearly 20 years ago.
This is one of the most vulnerable conversations on The Middle Child Podcast — about faith, relationships, healing, letting go, and learning that sometimes the prayer you've been waiting years for is actually the prayer that sets you free.
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CHAPTERS
00:00 — Cold Open: The 2023 Journal Entry That Started It All
01:21 — Welcome + Why This Is a Transparency Episode
03:46 — How It Started: Meeting a "Man of God" 8 Years Ago
09:06 — Part 1: Two Years Later, Face to Face
13:35 — Part 2: The Reunion, the Errand, and the 4AM Exit
17:27 — The First Time My Friend Saw Me Cry
19:00 — The Cycle Repeats: Reconnect, Disappear, Repeat
21:52 — Realizing the 8-Year Hold He Had On Me
25:46 — The Interview That Finally Opened My Eyes
26:20 — Part 3: Seeing Him Again "This Week"
30:00 — Blocked Everywhere: Reading My 2023 Journal Entry
36:00 — What Discernment and Standards Actually Look Like
43:00 — Logic vs. Emotions
59:49 — Closing + Gratitude
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