When fear follows you home.
Some days I trust God. Some days I question Him. And some days, after sitting across from families facing devastating diagnoses and impossible decisions, I honestly don't know what to believe.
If you've walked your child through cancer, you know that fear doesn't simply disappear when treatment ends. You notice every bruise. A fever can take your mind somewhere completely different. The hospital calling can change your entire nervous system before you even answer the phone. You know too much now to simply go back to the way you thought before.
In this episode, I'm talking about the incredibly thin line between conviction and fear. From the outside, they can produce exactly the same choices. But internally, they feel completely different.
I share what Josh and I have learned about accepting the fragility we now understand without allowing it to control our family. We'll talk about what we actually can control as parents, why trying to create a perfect health bubble isn't the answer, and how healthy boundaries can coexist with birthday cake, road trips, flexibility, and joy.
I also share one of the things I want parents to hear most clearly: you did not cause this. Doing everything "right" cannot guarantee an outcome, and one imperfect choice does not mean you have failed your child.
And when it comes to our kids, the goal isn't to make them afraid of food, supplements, or getting sick again. It's to educate them so they can eventually understand and take ownership of their own health.
This is also a conversation about faith without easy answers. I'm not going to pretend I understand why some children get sick or why some families experience unimaginable loss. But I am learning that I can acknowledge what I cannot control while continuing to steward the days I've been given.
Because you cannot unknow what you know. But fear doesn't have to decide what you do with it.
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