In this episode, Leana goes solo for a raw, personal reflection on wanting a partner and not yet finding the right one. She talks through the feelings that come with waiting — overthinking in quiet moments, watching friends and strangers online seem to have it figured out, feeling pressure from parents or society — and walks through what she's actually doing to work through it instead of just telling you to "trust God's timing" and leave it there.
This one is for anyone who feels like they're doing everything right and still waiting, anyone who's been made to feel ashamed of wanting intimacy or companionship, and anyone questioning whether the relationship they saw growing up is the one they actually want to repeat.
Leana gets into:
Wanting a partner but not finding the right one, and why that feeling is normal, not a flaw
Why God may be making you wait — building your character before you build a relationship
Looking honestly at her parents' marriage and deciding what she does and doesn't want to repeat
Why financial independence and "having something going for yourself" isn't about needing to prove anything to a man
Trusting fate (qadar) and why doubt in prayer can block what you're asking for
The power of tahajjud (the night prayer) and why she wants to start waking up earlier for it
Feeling worthy of what you want — tying confidence, fitness, journaling, clean eating, and prayer together
Actually putting yourself out there instead of waiting to be found from your bedroom
Self-care and presentation as part of the waiting season, not about becoming "perfect"
Wanting to trust men without losing herself in the process
Focusing on your relationship with God and yourself before your relationship with another person
A listener comment on the taboo around women talking about intimacy and desire in religious communities — and how to handle those feelings without shame
Why she doesn't believe in male friendships, and where she draws the line
"Love who you are, because at the end of the day, that is the most important relationship you're going to have — is with yourself." — Leana
TOPICS DISCUSSED
(00:00) — Cold Open: Wanting a Partner, Trusting the Wait
(01:08) — Wanting a Partner but Not Finding the Right One
(04:09) — Trusting God's Timing Over Rushing Into Marriage
(05:16) — Looking at Her Parents' Marriage & What She Doesn't Want to Repeat
(07:09) — Financial Independence & Having Something of Her Own
(08:17) — Fate (Qadar) & Praying Without Doubt
(09:25) — The Power of Tahajjud, the Night Prayer
(10:33) — Feeling Worthy: Confidence, Fitness, Journaling & Prayer
(12:03) — Putting Yourself Out There
(12:48) — Self-Care & Presentation While You Wait
(15:27) — On Trust, Men & Not Being a "Man Hater"
(16:12) — Relationship With God vs. Relationship With a Person
(17:42) — Listener Comment: The Taboo Around Women, Intimacy & Desire
(21:06) — Why She Doesn't Believe in Male Friendships
(22:59) — Closing Thoughts & Subscribe
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