How Long Can You Keep Escaping Yourself? with Tom Jenkins

Tom Jenkins looked functional from the outside. He held down jobs, travelled the world and kept life moving forward. But underneath, he was trapped in a cycle of binge drinking, gambling, shame, self-destruction and trying to outrun himself. 

In this brutally honest conversation, Tom talks openly about: 

•  blackouts, cocaine and waking up in places he couldn’t remember 
•  the loneliness and low self-worth driving his behaviour 
•  erectile dysfunction, porn and why so many men suffer in silence 
•  why “having fun” slowly became a way of escaping himself 
•  the moment he realised he couldn’t keep living this way 

But this episode isn’t just about addiction. It’s about the deeper question underneath it all: What are men really trying to numb, avoid or hide from?
 
Tom also shares how he slowly began rebuilding his life through honesty, changing his environment, self-reflection, healthier habits and eventually exploring psychedelics and ayahuasca in a controlled setting. 

This is a raw conversation about shame, masculinity, loneliness, self-forgiveness and what recovery actually looks like when you stop pretending everything is fine.

You can find Tom’s book 'The Drunk Gambler with Erectile Dysfunction: Searching for Something More' on Amazon and through other online retailers. If you want to contact Tom, you can do so via his website: https://www.thedrunkgambler.com/.