Rejection, Depression, Ayahuasca and Her Healing Journey with Jean Bender

🎙 Go In Courage Podcast Episode 53: Discarded, Rejected and Depressed: How Jean Turned Pain Into Purpose.

In this episode, host Rix Banga sits down with Jean Bender, a holistic practitioner based in Bali, to explore depression, rejection, childhood trauma, panic attacks, spirituality, emotional healing and what it means to rebuild your life after losing connection with yourself.

Jean shares her journey from growing up in Germany and being forced to become independent at a young age, to experiencing abandonment, family breakdown and the overwhelming responsibility of caring for her younger sister.

After years of carrying more than she could emotionally process, Jean reached a point where she completely shut down. She fell into a severe depression, slept for almost a month and discovered that depression was not simply sadness. For her, it felt like complete numbness, as though a grey veil had fallen over her entire life.

Together, Rix and Jean unpack the impact of childhood rejection, the relationship between emotional pain and physical wellbeing, destructive coping mechanisms, panic attacks and the courage required to face the parts of ourselves we would rather avoid.