Released on my 35th birthday, this episode is a cozy conversation between me and one of my closest friends about iboga integration. We discuss what life has been like in the nine months since I had a shocking Iboga experience. One that allowed me to access the source of deepest shame within myself, after six years of working with psychedelic medicine. Since then, I have been given the opportunity to transform my relationship with that shame.

This is a cozy story time style episode where I reflect on everything I have been learning, integrating, releasing and opening up to, after iboga at etereo. I definitely haven't "figured it all out", and I am in still in process. This is a glimpse into it the inner work that helped me befriend my shadowiest shadow.

Show Links:

ETÉREO: Center for Truth

@etereo__baja

Doing the Work w/ Iboga


Topics covered:

  • What Iboga reveals about self-deception, truth, and identity
  • The shock and grief phase of post-Iboga integration
  • Why integration often feels harder before it feels lighter
  • Slow healing vs. making healing your whole personality
  • Anxiety, thought spirals, and learning not to act from them
  • Releasing control, oversharing, and curated self-image
  • Cultural shame, father wounds, and returning to the Balkans
  • Creativity as integration (photography, fashion, expression)
  • Entering a secure romantic relationship after years of singleness
  • Anxious attachment, earned security, and emotional regulation
  • Living long-distance as part of the medicine’s curriculum
  • Why “life is the integration plan”
  • Stepping away from facilitation and the savior role
  • Choosing to enjoy life without abandoning depth or devotion

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