Language disclaimer: this episode includes explicit language so maybe listen with headphones if you’re around children.
As you all know, I took a sabbatical last fall. I needed that time to focus on my own growth and healing without having a microphone in my hand. One thing I knew I wanted to experience during my time away from The Refined Collective was a psilocybin journey (aka mushroom journey). I know there are a lot of immediate reactions that come to mind when someone hears something like that. And I know there are a million questions that you want answered. This episode is a deep dive into the 2-day guided mushroom journey, including why I felt at peace with the decision.
It is important to note that I am not a doctor and this experience is not for everybody. But I wanted to share with you what my experience was like.
I come from a family with addiction in it, and so I have always been careful about all substances. On top of that growing up Christian—I assumed anything drug related would be an open doorway for the demonic. For these reasons and so many more, I never thought a mushroom journey would be something I’d do.
A few years ago I started hearing rumblings of people I knew micro-dosing mushrooms to support things like PTSD, anxiety, and depression. Out of curiosity, I started doing some research of my own.
Three years into my research, I was presented with an opportunity to take part in a guided journey and I felt ready to do it.
I checked in with my therapist, my doctor, and my family. Everyone knew I was taking part in this experience.
The experience cost $500 and was led by three facilitators and there was a doctor on the premises as well. It felt incredibly safe.
The mushrooms themselves were put into a sort of hot chocolate.
I felt so held by God during this experience. I knew God was there with me and that I was safe even in the unknown of what this experience would feel like.
There was a particular moment from childhood that came up and brought up some heavy and powerful physical reactions.